Well, I fucked up :D

After my last boasts of building my bankroll the wrong way, I have busted. Thrice actually.

But it would be unfair to mention the ride. With that $50 and the tempo I had, I did make it upto $500 before busting, half of my target. Not bad a rode. Thanks to my headup madness, lost all of it in less than two hours. I feel sad for loosing all that and that I had to play freerolls and FPP tournaments. But I seem to have the same regard for these games as much as I did for 25NL. I think thats good. One smart thing which I probably should have done is, buy PT fullversion.

So, now that I am bust and have no PT. I'm planning to take a different route this time around. May be more like a consistent way, with not busting as the prime motive and having specific objectives. Thanks to the live cash games, they fuel my BR like God.

1) Playing on Titan Poker with $100 deposit, playing $1.5 - $3.5 STTs, with the objective of having atleast around 25%ROI and making 700points in a week to get the free PT4.

2) Once I get the PT4, my aim would be to  shifting to cash games, grind out the bonus @ $10NLwith 2-4 tables. Hopefully by this time, I'll be having a bankroll of atleast $200, to make that happen. And also neccessarily converting the bonuses to Euros, to keep an account of them.

3)  Hopefully in a month I'll be able to grind out the deposit bonus, then cash out half and shift to home, sweet home, PS, with a bankroll of ~$1000.

4) Start playing MTTs with a BR of $500 and grinding cash on TP.

This is the plan for the next two months. Cheers!

Starting Up, the Wrong way

Among my peers this usually means a company, but this ain't that. I am starting up at becoming a pro. Pro, Poker player. Too big of words to say at this instance but that's what I aim to do.

After three months of online grinding and live, I've decided to start a blog about my journey. 

Like everyone else, it was love at first sight. I found the game rather late in my college days. It was teenpatti that gave way to some mysterious seven card game with two hole cards and five community cards. we didnt have chips, we played with chillar we saved up the whole week. It was fun, it was like the currency of the game is from another planet, when people had to think too hard to call a Rs.2.5 raise.  Waise bhi fattu junta thi udar. :D 

And then I passed out of the college. It was a lone lone world, with no love, for poker :P. Now that I had the money, I bought a chipset. It was just players that I was waiting for. And then I shifted to mumbai. IITB, that where the scene started. Live 200 bucks buy in. After my first cash session, I thought to myself, "Man this is much more fun than any movie can give, totally worth for the 200 I gave away." And I started going often. The money didn't matter to me and I just loved playing poker and people. I sucked out on players, made some insane moves, ofcourse which only insanely super thinking pros can do or newbie players. Similiairty of extremes. Then, I didnt know the intricacies of this seemingly simple game. But what I knew was, I have to play at a different level than the players on my table. Simple. No math, No cards. Just play at a different level. Well, that worked pretty good for me. I won, won big. When I was considered the fish with the money, I kept winning, "getting lucky". This was just awesome. But I hardly knew the terms they were talking, I thought, I don't even want to know. Then I started watching videos and started reading stuff online, that when I realized, I the importance of math. Otherwise it was all the gut feel to go with, all the raises were same for me. The thought always was, "Do I beat him, or does he beat me?"

Coming for a math background, I thought it would be stupid to not know the math of the game I love.

That's when the online scene started. Took all the free bankroll offers in the world, built the bankroll, busted it and the same went till I finished all the available offers. I had no plans of depositing, then I met my newbie dost who was playing depositing $5-10 and making it and busting out. I tried it too, made my first deposit of $10. And that's how it started.

Reading books went on, so did the deposits. Many $10 buyins made me realize that too small an amount, I shifted to $100 deposit. First deposit, down to $49, was multi tabling and saw a pro, multi tabling 25 MTTs, I was like wtf. I thought. Yes, that the way to go. Registered in 3 tourneys, two $2.5 - 180-Tubro and a$1.5- 90 - Turbo. And thats when I got my first big win. Finished first in the $2.5 -180 - Tubro. A $120 boost to my bankroll, I was on a super high. My graph just rocketed up. In three days I burnt all my money, on $3.5+R. And then I knew what was "Beginner's luck" and how hard it is to win big. And ofcourse I deposited again. And then I tried all sorts of games, Cash, fullring, 6 max, STT, MTT, satellites, tournaments, just kept busting. Lost another $100. And then I thought this would be my last, found the right game for me $3.5 STT, Double my bankroll in a week and then busted back to intial BR in 2 hrs. That was frustating. And then I took a drastic step. I sat with all my BR on a cash table, and then I discovered the beauty of cash games. Trippled my BR in 1 day. Busted the other day. Took friends money and played insane stakes to get back and then busted again. I was doing something wrong. Yes, playing the wrong stakes. I know I am bound to bust. But what I also know is, I want to push myself. What if I play with all my life earnings on a single game, may be I am getting ready for some insane moves or just plain stupidity. It can be both. But I am ready for another shot at it, saying fuck you, to BR management, playing with all my money on the table. Saying Hi, to variance. With the only weapon of self conrol and picking the right spots. I aim to make it big, the different way, the wrong way.

~ftW!

AJ